.Childhood is the Kingdom where nobody dies.

Time.

2010-02-04T01:29:00.002+08:00

Moving house,Chinese New Year,Valentines day.
All in one week, day after the other.
Slow down time, I'm only one girl. Ugh.
Plus, I haven't decided what to do for my wall!!!!! >:(
I need help! Can someone please give suggestions for my wall?
I've decided not to paint it, but use wall stickers. It'll be easier for me and my friends too.
Now, the problem is..... I CAN'T FIND ONE BLOODY DECENT AND PRETTY STICKER IN SIGHT!!!!! UGH! >:(
Plus, I work almost everyday, and i recently sprained my ankle so now it's hurting like a bitch.
I really need help. Where is Superman when you need him?? :(

NUGH.

2010-01-30T14:01:00.003+08:00

F-my life. I am feeling bitter and I don't know why.

Ugh.

I think I really need a stress relief ball now. Anyone up buying it for me? :/

Hope For Haiti

2010-01-24T23:56:00.003+08:00

I would donate all my money to Hope For Haiti Telethon, if Taylor would pick up my call.

i change my face everyday.

2010-01-21T23:14:00.004+08:00

Do I really look very different with makeup on?
I've got comments from everyone that says that i look super different when i tie up my hair and when i put on makeup.
I don't really see the difference. So it's up to you to decide.
Hahah.

Without makeup on.

With makeup on.

??????

Whatcha say?

Tonight's gonna be a good night. My foot.

2010-01-20T09:11:00.012+08:00

Another year has passed. The pain never really fades away.
Some people have tried to set me straight,some didn't know what to say.
I really want to move on,but alas,it seems like my feet are rooted to the ground. [Mental feet,mind you.]
I just wana say to you, I love you & I miss you so.
Your were my confidant when I was down. You were there to stand up for me when I was hurt. You were there to provide me with a shelter when I was homeless.
Home just doesn't feel the same without you here.
I still blame myself. Why didn't I wake up immediately when I sensed that something was wrong? Why didn't I stop yapping,and start moving my bloody ass off the bed.
Why didn't I stop screaming and start calling for help? I really am the dumbest and slowest girl alive.
Maybe He is teaching me a lesson. A lesson to get me to start reacting and stop worrying? Idk.
Anyways, I would just like to thank a couple of people.
To daddy, who always tries to help me even when he knows he can't do much.
To lyy, for the interesting talk we had @ 3am in the morning.
To wl, for encouraging me on & knocking some well needed sense into this airhead.
To waily, who tried to help and was willing to sacrifice his sanity. [Apparently, I sound like Ris Low via msn. >:( ]
Thank you all. Even those not mentioned. I'm sorry, but it's been two years.
I can't exactly remember everyone who helped me along the way. But I do know one thing, those who helped, I appreciate it, A LOT.
These couple of people helped me recently when I had a mental breakdown so yea.
Okay, this post is real emo, so on a lighter note, I'm back to blogging! [yay! :D ]
& I know the layout is reeeeeaaaaaaaaally crappy now, BUT! It'll be fixed.
:D Hees, so keep a lookout. That is...Erm... If... Y'know... You want to....
Gosh, I'm having a ditherspaz.

Very late birthday post.

2009-08-19T01:32:00.005+08:00

Hello everyone! I'm so sorry for the lack of updates. :/
Been lazy and all, anyways, life's not so exciting for me now.
It's the same old same old routine everyday.
And...... I'm one year OLDER. :(
I feel old now... When I was younger, I've always welcomed the fact that I'll be 16 one day.
I even looked forward to it!! :O I've also been planning my Sweet Sixteen since I was 10?
But when that day finally arrived, the idea of a perfect Sweet Sixteen just seemed...
I don't know? Dreadful? I can't really describe the feeling.
Anyway, it's over now. I can't say it was perfect, but it was EVENTFUL.
Those who were there would know, and I'm sorry for the bad mood after lunch.
Somebody just like to get under my skin . Even on MY birthday.
I was so angry! Can you imagine someone who won't even give in to you on your birthday?! [I don't mean that everyone had to give in to me, it's just that it was a really simple request, like eating lunch with me. But nooooo, the person was tooo LAZY. so yea.]
I have to give in to that somebody instead!!!! And we had planned it like a few weeks ago!!!
Ugh. I gave in on that person's birthday cause afterall, it's THEIR day. Not mine.
But why can't that person do the same for mine? It's not a huge request, I just wanted to spend the whole day with that certain someone. And that person totally crushed my mood, thus wrecking my day.
But it turned out fairly okay i guess. Still am not thrilled, it could have been better, like much MUCH better. But I don't have a time turner like Hermione in Harry Potter.
All I can do is gurmble and make hell for that person! [Heh heh, I'm just joking ;)]
Catched Orphan sneaks. Really scary. Not the supernatural kinda scary, but scary as in how can one be so evil. Brrrr... Thinking of it just sent chills up my spine....
Okay, some photos taken on that day. I can't upload the one with my FACE!!!!! :(((( The rest are with Jingwen or Qinyi or Weien. :P

Oh, I'm also sorry this blog is turning to a blogshop. :(
Lazy to do up another blog so it's going to be a permanent space here.
Do support! I'm friendly and don't bite! Don't mind negotiating the prices but be CONSIDERATE! :)
Ohkay, do check the selling post belowwwwww!!! Thank you very much. :D

wooooonderfuuuuuulll. [not for sale]

2009-04-29T23:08:00.004+08:00

credits: billybabybop.livejournal.com

credits: modparade.livejournal.com

credits: eatingzombie.livejournal.com

credits: forever21.com

watch this.

2009-04-26T22:59:00.001+08:00

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HjWtRYaxmWM this is so touching! and it's definately real.
I wish I had a lion cub. :/
I've always had a soft spot for big furry cats like lions and tigers.
I don't really know why.
They just look super adorable and friendly to me.
If I had the chance to be able to be so close to a lion, I would most definately go for it.
Haha. :D
Maybe it's because I'm a leo. So that explains why i love lions. Tee Hee. :P

Lazy Bum. [not for sale: vintage floral print skirt]

2009-04-15T21:08:00.005+08:00

I admit I am a super lazy bum.

Haha. Worked out with Melinda yesterday at her hostel and it was really fun! :D Was supposed to go again today but the flu was being a bitch.

Woke up at 830 for tuition and was super groggy.

Crystal was really nice. As usual. :P

Okay, I'm really lazy to blog now, so I'll just post some pictures!

Btw, my korea square peg bag arrived and it's looking super fab! Everyone gave great compliments, so Baby!

THANK YOU FOR THE FABULOUS 1YEAR 1MONTH PRESENT! :D

Denim Ribbon Highwaisted Skirt

199shop.livejournal.com

-Do support! Owner is super nice (: & the things she's selling are really cheap and the quality is great! Much cheaper than other online blogshops!

Pastel Semi Highwasited Skirt

Modparade.livejournal

Vintage Floral Printed Skirt II

Bonitochico.livejournal

Tata!

Sexciting = Exciting?

2009-04-09T23:47:00.001+08:00

I still don't get why is the word Sexciting so... Exciting?

i know it's not much.

2009-04-09T23:11:00.005+08:00

Sometimes, I keep asking myself, why am I still stuck here.
Everyone moved forward as time goes by, why can't I? I really wished I was those girls who can move on real fast, and not linger on the past.
Heck, I don't look like one who lingers on the past, but who does look like one?
It's not like it's written on their faces right? So yea, people who don't know me,
please don't claim that I'm those kinda people who move on like the wind.
I wonder how long he can keep up with me?
I know I'm never the best bet, but he puts all his faith in me..
In us. I know I was never a good enough girl.
I don't know, I just kinda feel inferior. I feel like I'm a little girl playing dress-up,
trying to fit into the adult world.
I'm sorry you had to tolerate all my nonsense all this while.
I promise to try and change.. I'll really try my best.
If you're reading this, you'll most probably be thinking "Did we fight?",
haha, no we didn't baby, I just felt like writing about this.
I know I'm very random, oh wells, beats keeping all this to myself aye?
I love you, you know I do. :)
[Do you? ;)]

how can i move on, when i'm still in ♥ with you?-

-ps. Botanic Gardens tmr with TOKKI! :D hahas, can't wait to use her leash.
that is if the boyfriend got it... hahas. :D

SHOPPING! :D [not for sale, except knitted skirt]

2009-04-07T21:34:00.012+08:00

Hello everyone! :D
Hahas, it's been so long since I've last blogged.
Anyways, many things happened during this period of time. Some whacko came to my blog and starts saying I'm spoilt and all.

Please luh, who are you to say I'm spoilt? Do you even know me? I like to spend money so what?

At least i do save up my money. And how do you know I don't work for my money?

FYI, I do work for my money okay? Like I said, I receive money as presents and I work for my spending money. Clothes I received from my parents and boyfriend are gifts.

It's not like i forced people to buy me stuff okay? So get your facts right.

Btw, your tacky name, 'Watchman', is like seriously stupid.
Since you think you're so great? Why not tag with your real name? Chicken huh?

Pfft. You're the one who's in denial okay. I have no time to play along your stupid games.
Oh, and btw, you'll be happy to know that I've saved every message you tagged on my tagboard.

Along with your IP address. I will not hesitate to report you to the police if you continue to annoy me with your childish nonsense.

Okay, now back to the reason I wanted to blog, is of course for my love of shopping! :D

Am planning to get some clothes via online :D

Hahas.

BOUGHT :D

credits : forever21.com

[There's much more to come. Hiak Hiak Hiak :P]
-

Also, I bought some stuff for the boyfriend (:

-Access-ed.livejournal's Luke Berms in Black.

-Abercrombie And Fitch Polo Tee

-Soul essential for men [TheFaceShop EDP]

Hees, that's all for now.

Piccas of us for the past few weeks!

First off, the adorable boyfriend! :D

The boyfriend seriously looks good if he bothered to style up his hair.

So we're going do our hair this coming saturday together! :D

Along with my mom of course. Hahas.

Now it's my turn! :D

It's not much though, didn't feel like taking pictures..

Be it alone or with people.

Will post soon! :D

xoxo.

Forever 21 Ribbed Cuff Leggings In Black :D

2009-03-23T21:53:00.006+08:00

Yeeeee Hawww! :D

I am so very happy now. Ho Ho.

Was at mom's place yesterday thus, a no show in church.

Went swimming at god-ma's place with cousin and brother.

Basically, we didn't swim much. More like tok-kok session luh.

Hahas. Then we went to Westmall for lunch, but before that, I had to meet Heather[k-ubicle.blogspot.com] for a swap.

My Satin like leggings for her F21 Ribbed cuff leggings. :D

WOO HOO! :D The leggings was brand new! :D

And from one look, I could see that it was long enough for me! :D

Anywhos, went to try it on at my aunts' place, and sure enough, it fits like a glove! :D

Super happy lehhhhh. :D

Here's a picture of it! :D

And thennnnnnnn, I got some other items online as well. :X

And I'm guilty.. Hahas.

Boyfriend got me the Tuxedo Blazer and I'm over the moon! :D

Ohwells, tmr there's no morning classes so I can sleep in. :D

But I'm contemplating whether I'm heading for a swim in the morning. All alone.... T.T

Oh wells, I need to study now, or else I would forget everything Mr Shav thought me today.

HAH!

I WANA BUYYYYYYYYYYYY! ;D

2009-03-21T12:50:00.005+08:00

Hellos! :D hahas, notice how nowadays I update really fast ?
Hees, that's cause I'm super eager to sell off my items and buy new ones! :D
I just saw these two items @ inksandneedles.weebly.com and i want to get them! :D
I've been dying to have my own Tuxedo Blazer but everytime I see one at Mango,Zara,Topshop etc.. it's always super expensive!
Like $100+++++ ?
Ugh, it always depresses me so whenever i see the pricey price tag.

I'm also scouring everywhere for comfortable bottoms.
Hahahas, so I'm really happy to see what i want from that particular website. :D
Anywhos, I hope that i can still get the blazer from the owner as it's already all pending! D;
Okay, piccas now for those two BEAUTIFUL items. HEES :DD

The Postman Black Shorts.
$25

The Tuxedo Blazer.
$32 only ! :D

Hees, wish me luck! :D

ugh.

2009-03-17T23:29:00.001+08:00

Why is it always me who has to pick up the pieces of the mess you've created and swallow all the blame?Its not fair , life's not fair . I dont want to carry on with this cycle . So please , the very least you could very do - have a heart.

blogshopping! :D

2009-03-17T00:58:00.011+08:00

HELLO! :D
Hees, to pay tribute to online shopping, I'm going to post all of the items that I've bought online.[Only recent items. :P]
First off, items from the BOYFRIEND. :D

Green high waisted shorts [$21.90]

Mandy slouchy blazer from robotninjas.LJ [$26]

Amelia wet look racer back from Robotninjas.LJ [$18]

F21 Floral Woven Tank [$16.90 USD]

F21 Cara Frayed Denim shorts [$22.80 USD]

Now, for those that i bought! :D

Jelly Gladiator Sandals in Hot Pink [$20]

High Shine/ Lame leggings [$16]

Satin Like Leggings from hocuspocusing.LJ [$18 + postage]

Feather Tee Dress from 199shop.LJ [$19.90]

I even got a pair of cute hearts earrings cause apparently, the owner thinks that i'm a very good and honest customer. ho ho. :D

Peek Shoulder Cardi with Belt from 199shop.LJ [$19.90]

Topshop Inspired Faux leather jacket from tracyeinny.com.sg [$46]

Hello Kitty Polaroid Tee from Wetseal Spree [$15 USD]

Rose Lace Stockings from inksandneedles.weebly [$21]

IMPORTED STRAIGHT FROM USA, NOT THOSE ITCHY KINDA LACE! :DDD

School Girl Dress from ohveranda.BS [$18]

Ellen Bandage Skirt from ohvola.LJ [$18.50]

And now, for the items my Papa and Mama bought for me. VIA ONLINE :D

PAPA

Bling Bling Heart shaped earpiece from bellitaslofa.BS [$12]

MAMA

Wetseal Hankerchief Skirt [$24.50 USD]

Hee hee hees.

I so love all these! Thanks Papa, Mama and the Boyfriend for buying me all these pretty stuff. :D

Maybe if you're lucky, you might see all these beautiful pieces when I'm out. :D

Tata!

check this out.

2009-03-05T18:28:00.002+08:00

hahas, heyo!
sorry that i didn't update, been busy.
oh, not to mention lazy too.
anyways, this is gonna be a super short post.
hahas, i'll end with this hilarious video i found whilst blog hopping.
enjoy! :D
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=G7YXn-lfHXc

New Moon

2009-02-08T19:26:00.005+08:00

Hello everyone! :D

Hees, pardon me for this late post. Got so much to do before V-day!

Btw, today is my Daddykins birthday! :D

I love you Paps, now and forever.

Thanks for being my daddykins, thanks for loving me unconditionally even though we argue sometimes. :D

Okay, I'm not going to be a nag and post about what's been happening to me for the past two weeks, so I'll let the peektures to the talking.

Afterall, a picture is worth a thousand words aye? :D

Death by Bikini.

2009-01-20T21:37:00.004+08:00

Hello everybody! :D Hahas, it's been more than one week since I've last posted,
and I've already had complaints about it. [So this one's for you Qinyi! :D]
Was late for school this morning, cause i had a long Monday.
It was due to school but at least it consisted of some shopping :D
Hahas, bought a Dickies backpack. Didn't buy the one i originally eyed for cause the salesgirl says that they don't have it at any of their outlets anymore. D:
Was super upset, but then, I still bagged one relatively pretty design ! :D
So all was not lost. Hahas, then mom proceeded getting a Peace Tank by Victoria Secrets 'Pink' collection.
Was super happy and glad that at least I did some CNY shopping, paid by my mom.
[As you guys know, I did online shopping using my money.]
So i ended up reaching home at 10.30pm.
Couldn't fall asleep till the wee hours of the morning and thus, ended up being late for school.
By a mere 15mins. Lucky me! [My house is a 3mins walk away from my school. :D ]
Didn't miss much, and I made another new friend today! :D
Am really glad that God has been watching over me all these times.
Giving me the determination and drive to pull through school and all those stress.
And I'm really glad I'm in BMC academy now.
The environment really suits me and all. And I thank God for that :D
Oo! oo! Back to the day, Liz waited for me for like 30mins la! Felt so bad, but am glad she woke me up. Hahas, so thanks Liz! :D
Went to the library after school to do a little self study.
But i stumbled upon a very interesting book with a very interesting title. DEATH BY BIKINI.
http://www.lindagerber.com/index.html
HA HAS! So cool right? The title says it all!
It's a chick book filled with action packed mystery and all.
Was a super good combi for me. Finished the entire book in one day and am really regretting not getting the sequel. [Which was sitting right next to this book when i saw it. D:]
So am thinking of getting it tmr after my 4 consecutive hours of tuition. T.T
Alrights, that's all for now.
Oo , Baby's ill now. DDDD: & today's my Beloved Grandmas' Death Anniversary. [I miss you.]
Ciao for now. :D

P.S : The date on my msn is not my Anniversary date with Baby laaaaaaaaaaaah. Hahas.

school reopened!

2009-01-13T21:58:00.009+08:00

Hello everyone! :D
Okay, i'm dead tired today so i'll keep this short.
School reopened for me and was quite happy with my class and all.
Except for certain classes where the Ahlians were freaking noisy and inconsiderate.
Ugh, anyways, the WORST thing that can ever happen to me may happen.
I took a look at my class list this morning and i noticed a name very familiar to me.
It read, TAN JW
LIKE WTH?!
OMGOSH! IS HE SUCH A LOSER?
I MEAN, HE WAS RETAINED IN SEC3 AND THEN NOW HE FAILS HIS 'O'S ??
I don't mean that all those who retained or failed 'O' levels are losers.
ONLY HIM. CAUSE HE STILL CAN BRAG THAT HE'S SUPER SMART AND ALL, AND THAT IT'S GOING TO BE A BREEZE. HA HA HA.
I'M SUPER GLAD WE BROKE UP, I MEAN, I CAN'T STAND HIM AT ALL.
PETTY @#$^%#^#@!
Anyways, i just hope that he won't be in my class or school.
I really wish i have fairy godparents, so that i can simply wish him away to an uncharted island.
:/
Oh wells, this can't be fulfilled anyways.
Will just pray really hard to God then.
That's all for now!
Adieus! :D

IT ARRIVED ! :D

2009-01-09T16:21:00.003+08:00

MOOD : SUPERDUPER HAPPY!

Heehees, my skirts have arrived! :D
Thankyou Baby for my Christmas presents! :D
Though it came late but i'm still super happy :D
Okay, back to taking photos! :D
Found a model already! :D Hahas, guess who?
It's ..... ANQI! :D
And she's also my first customer cause she bought a necklace from me just now! :D
Hahas, okay, gtg (:

Toodles!

diet ! :D

2009-01-08T17:12:00.004+08:00

MOOD : HAPPY

Hahas, Hello all! :D

Last night i went to find my beloved mommy at bukit batok and hence i stayed over there.

Anyways, mommy's willing to sponsor my contact lens and my dieting plans! :D

Yay mommy! :D [Didn't say Daddy ain't the best arh. :D]

You're the BEST mansxzsx.

Hahahas, so yea, i am super happy and am not mad with Baby anymore. :D

Okay, i need to get ready to go home now,

Toodles.

DDDDD;

2009-01-07T16:35:00.003+08:00

MOOD :BITCHY,SAD

OMGOSH. UGH! TALKING TO HIM IS SERIOUSLY DRIVING ME NUTS!
@~!#$%^&*%^%
HE DOESN'T RESPOND TO ANYTHING I SAY, I MEAN WHEN I CALL HIS NAME HE JUST PRACTICALLY IGNORES ME CAUSE HE'S PLAYING HIS STUPID NEOPET.
UGGGGGGGGGGH.
THEN WHEN I FINALLY SNAPPED AND SHOUTED HIS NAME, HE SCOLDED ME.
!~#$#%%%&*(^%(* !!!!!!!!!!!!
AND THEN, AND THEN.
MY CAM DIED HALFWAY THROUGH PHOTO-TAKING.
SO MY BLOGSHOP WON'T BE READY IN TIME!!!!
I DON'T HAVE THE CHARGER BTW. DDDD;
UGH, TODAY ISN'T GOING WELL.

set up ! :D

2009-01-06T19:59:00.004+08:00

MOOD: EXCITED!

Helloooooooooo! :D
I'm super happy :D hahahas.
My blogshop is finally set up and it's set to lauch next monday ! :D
Hahahahahas.
Okay, i'm just here to post this.
Now off to take photos ! :D
Toodles!

ps, i'm thinking of changing this into a livejournal one. any comments on this? (:

pills to get me off shopping.

2009-01-05T22:25:00.004+08:00

omgosh!
i seriously need to find a cure for my insane shopping craves! x.x
if this continues on, my family will soon be bankrupt.
oh wells, this just means that i'll have to ..
a) save up money.
b) study real hard so that when i grow up, i can afford to buy clothes with my hard earned money.
c) kick baby's ass to get him start helping me with the layout/template of my soon to be blogshop. [something's wrong with it's template.]
anyways, cny is coming and i'm afraid i won't have enough new clothes to last me through!
i know i know, that sounded so bimbotic.
oh wells, i AM a bimbo when it comes to fashion. :P
hees, i'll also have to plan new year resolutions.
will post them up when i finish it. hahas.
ohkays, off to harvest moon! :D [man! this game is uber addicting. been playing it since i was primary2. that's when playstation and gameboy colour was introduced.]

ps, i'm not so backdated hor! the game has many different versions! i'm playing the newer version. i think.... :P

toodles! ♥

NEW SKIN! :D

2009-01-05T17:45:00.001+08:00

hey ho everyoneeeeeeeee! :D
i've just changed my skin! :D
nice right? gimme your views! :D
loves. ♥

sick.

2009-01-05T01:53:00.003+08:00

i am sick. T.T
super sian.
who spread the flu to me? T.T
now it's all runny. X.X
i cannot breathe properly and my nose itches every second. X.X
please help pray for me.
really cannot stand it.
anyways, HURRAY! :D
the clothings that i've ordered online is coming soon :D
so excited! :D
hahas, eh, i need to sleep now. so yea.
sorry for the short post! will post again ! :D

happy new year:D

2009-01-01T12:10:00.003+08:00

hey ho people! :D

HAPPY NEW YEAR! :D

2008 is part of the past now,

let's hope 2009 will be better :D

-stayed over last night, had fun :D

alone at home.

2008-12-31T02:25:00.002+08:00

yippie! :D
i finished watching 'ouran high school host club' ! :DDDD
hahas, this is a super funny and romantic show.
the stunts they pulled off seriously makes you laugh till your stomach burst! :D
anyways, today is the last day for the year 2008.
this year has been, how to put it,unfortunate for me.
many events had taken place and i've learned quite a number of lessons.
anyways, i hope that 2009 would be a better year for me. :D
school's starting on the 12 while there's a orientation on the 7.
haven't finished setting up my blogshop so people,
bear with me a little :/
i really do hope that year 2009 would be a better year for my studies, family, friendship, relationship and most of all, my relationship with God.
i didn't really improve in my relationship with God this year, thus all these unfortunate events.
i believe that if i work hard to get closer to Him, my relationship with baby, my family, friends and studies, would improve greatly. :)
i'll work hard towards that goal! :D
so everyone, have a happy new year! :D

back to norm

2008-12-29T23:45:00.003+08:00

finally, everything is back to normal. (:
am super glad that all these fighting is finally over.
today i watched "ponyo on the cliff by the sea."
super cute movie la :D
baby had preview tickets so he asked me to go with him.
it was at marina square.
the show is really good (: hahas.
fell in love with the colours, the cute animation and the cute cheery song!
hahas.
"ponyo! ponyo! ...." baby kept singing it over and over again.
hahas. :D went to diva after the movie and i bought a super cute lego bracelet! :D
there were many things that i wanted to buy but i stopped myself, the mantra in my head kept saying "there'll be a sale, there'll be a sale."
hahas, so yea, i'm waiting for the sale to come so that i can buy them all! muahahahas.
oooooooooo, i haven't uploaded my taiwan pics yet, kinda busy with all the christmas and year end things.
will try to upload soon ! :D
that reminds me! I GOT MY HOLGAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA ! ;D
super adorable la! it's smaller than my tiny palm! :D
and mind you, my palm is micro-sized.
:P dad's considering getting normal sized one for me (:
i love daddy! :D
oooo, i love mommy too! cause she bought me a super nice maxi dress for christmas :D
okay, i gtg now, my anime can't wait for me! ta-ta ! :D

back.

2008-12-23T23:40:00.002+08:00

hello everyoneeeeeeeeee!
i'm back from taiwan :D
hahas, though i'm back for so long, i haven't blogged about the awesome trip! :P
my apologies, will blog once i settle everything.
life's a mess nowadays, have to get ready gifts and cards for christmas.
my holga cam hasn't arrive, that stupid blogshop owner hasn't refunded me.
bloody hell. everything isn't going my way.
and i need new clothes for my school as we're not allowed to wear shorts,sleeveless tops etc.etc.
don't even know whether dress can or not.
anyways, i need your help guys/girls!
even my boyfriend is leaving me alone. bloody hell.
i have to do everything by myself.
i even have to do his job as well.
life sucks right now.
so please brighten up my day and purchase my pre-loved clothings at my new blogshop that's going to be ready by 1jan2009. [hopefully earlier]
okay, i gtg. love & kisses :D

he says ..

2008-12-05T00:34:00.006+08:00

he says i'm innocent , [nah ..]
he says i'm naive , [agreed.]
he says i'm adorable , [:x]
he says i'm lovely , [heh ?]
he says i'm perfect , [nobody's perfect.]
he says i'm beautiful , [think not. so fat!]
he says i'm his all , [i hope so. :) ]

i love him (: &i'll miss him .
for8days baby.
8days. (:

taiwaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaan

2008-12-02T20:15:00.003+08:00

hee hees :D
heyall!
i'm excited ! ~
i'm heading off to taiwan this saturday morning at 1am.
:D :D :D :D :D
hahas. anyways, went to arab street on sunday and bought many charms and all.
wanted to try making a necklace for myself and i finished it in one hour! :D
it looks simple but it's really pretty :D
i'm thinking of making a few to sell. hahahas.
okay, i better get back to packing my clothes!
cya :D

momo !

2008-11-28T03:16:00.000+08:00

our future pet dogs' name will be momo-kun aye? :D

translation: maomao :DDD

garang guni in the making.

2008-11-26T16:19:00.003+08:00

after hours and hours of scouring my old items,
many memories just came flooding my brain.
it's like a sudden flashback, where i'm standing and looking at what was taking place in the past.
i saw many happy moments in school.
many letters, many gifts, many surprises and all.
i savaged out a thousand letters from my secondary school friends.
these letters were signed off with a "i love carmen" note.
i wonder if they really meant that even at that time.
life was great back then. being naive and all,
i always thought everyone was good.
but after all these uneventful accounts, i seriously felt a harsh knock of reality.
people aren't what i thought they were.
on a solemn note, i miss those times.
i miss those friends. i miss everything.
i even miss my old self. i wish that i can bring her back.
but life had changed me, and i'll never be able to bring her back.
just like how i'll never be able to bring back those happy memories to life.
those were the times where my grandma, grandpa, uncle, aunt and everyone who passed away was still alive.
i really wish i can go back into time to relish all these happy memories once again.
i'm keeping all these little stuff, little mementos so that i'll never forget them.

p.s, i have way too much junk.

my wants & wishes.

2008-11-24T17:12:00.008+08:00

hee hees :D
christmas is coming soon! so yea, this post is dedicated to my wants!

hahahahahas. :D

my wants

:Ladybug Ear Buds [$15]

:Holga Starter Kit {multi colour}[$117 , hk585]

[description]

Holga cameras, originally developed in Hong Kong in the early 80s, are known for their unique distortions such as overlapped exposures and light leaks (which renders the photos in bright, almost otherworldly colors). This starter kit comes with a firehouse red camera, film, and a great book with tips and tricks for operation and over 350 gorgeous Holga shots. We feel a new hobby coming on...

:The Pop Art Cam [$20]

Create your own Warhol-inspired masterpiece with this modern artist's camera. Each 4x6 picture gives you a red, green, yellow and blue snapshot. Who knows, one of your prints may bring you 15 minutes of fame!

all these are only available through the net, but if anyone has any of these items to sell, please tag and tell me the price :D hahas.

thanks! :D btw, i'll be leaving for taiwan on the 5th of december till 12th. :D
& i think my blogshop will be set up soon. hahahs. see you ! :D

sick

2008-11-22T19:46:00.000+08:00

my insomnia's so bad that i hallucinate.

singing time! :D

2008-11-20T01:10:00.003+08:00

hahas. went to guanliang's house today for our music cafe performance rehearsal.
went quite well actually. :D
xining did a great job on arranging the sequence and all. hahas.
& i seriously think that we all sounded really good together! :D
harmonizing with one another makes me feel closer to them.
& i thank God for that.
true friends are hard to find, but if you believe in God,
they're really easy to spot.
i'm learning to take things one step at a time, and leave all the difficult and mind boggling stuff to God.
hahas. okay, i'll end here, must continue watching my show! :D

swimming :D

2008-11-18T23:22:00.007+08:00

hellos! i rot at home today.
& i am retarded. managed to fall asleep in the wee hours of the morning and woke up at 3pm.
so i'm quite tired and i have EYEBAGS now. T.T
boohoo. anyways, i changed my blogskin again! hahahas. :D
nice right? :P i got good taste! [i know i know, very bhb.]
i went swimming with baby earlier on, like about 8pm i think.
it's been ages since i last swam in yck swimming complex.
and because of the long absence in the water, my stamina dropped like crazy.
i only managed to conk out 5 or 6 laps.
i know i know, super duper lousy la.
but hey! i'm going to train okay? hahas. must get back in shape! :D
hahahas! and i've finally sorted out what are the items i'm going to sell soon!
so people, keep your eyes open cause my blogshop is opening real soon!
[as soon as i pick a new blogskin and measure the clothings.]
hahas. i'll end for now, leave a message on my tag board people! :D

squashed.

2008-11-17T18:53:00.004+08:00

damn my boobs. being a c cup is no fun at all.

there's not much nice clothings that are available for c cup sized people.

the reason on why i'm ranting about this is because, recently baby bought a new dress for me which is super ultra pretty. {the material is super soft too.}

we bought it online and i had forgotten to check the ptp status.

turns out, the bust is way too small for me la.

i had to squeeze a lot to get in. damn.
this dress is for people with no boobs.

for people like this. >

look at how boobless she is. T.T

eewww, i'll never want to be like that.

what's so fun about being a sized 0 model? i mean,

isn't the boobs like the all female most precious asset?

people! design more clothes for people who have assets to flaunt!

not make more girls/women be anorexic in order to squeeze into pretty clothings!

if i am a designer, i'll never take up the job of creating clothes that requires females to be a size 0.

anyways, anyone who knows of good tailors etc, kindly tag on my tagboard or sms me. i need to alter this dress asap! T.T thanks (:

why is my art so lousy ? DDD:

2008-11-17T02:33:00.005+08:00

i seriously can't do anything that's related to art.
even the art of straightening my ridiculous hair. D:
waaaah! why can't i have my mommy's & daddy's art talent?!
why must i be the only one in the family who has a talent for something different?
my mom and dad can draw/paint/sketch/hell anything !
kudos to my brother. but i'm the only one who can't! D:
oh woe is me. DDD:
i seriously need to pick up super-duper-many-many skills man,
since i like styling myself up.
oh, the price to pay for being VAIN.
anywhos, watched "the coffin" today with baby during the night.
earlier on in church, wasn't feeling well and was super sleepy cause i'm suffering from dumb-ass insomnia.
so yea, during the sermon i koed. :P
*i'm sorry God, forgive me pretty please? :) *
but i still managed to grasp the whole topic and understood what wenjiao ganshi was trying to tell us.
thanks uncle for offering to bring me to the oh-so-scary doc! :D
feeling much better now btw. hahas.
okay, i think i'm getting sleepy now. gotta grab the chance now!

seeyou peeps ! :D
p.s : i didn't scream while watching the movie. & i didn't close my eyes! :D
i only curled up like a ball.... :P

big bruise. D;

2008-11-16T01:26:00.003+08:00

"the only photo of our romantik date. :/"

yesterday was "red vs white competition" ,
and guess what? the girls won again! :D
hahahas. and i'm the leader somemore. :D super happy la.
though i was a bit stoney at the beginning but after a little warm-up, i was super excited la!
hahas. didn't sleep well at all, only managed to sleep at 6 in the morning, that's why i was so stoney.
anyways, enjoyed my time in church though i did get hurt.
hahas. now got one orh qi lor.
btw, i miss weiliang. hahas.
i haven't seen him this whole year at all la.
so yea, hope that i'll get to see him soon! :D
anyways, just a random note, I LOVE CLOTHES AND SHOPPING! :D
i know it's really random but i'm not in a clear state now so pardon me. :P
hahas. okay peeps, i'm going off now. see you !

p.s, that's the only photo we took while ice-skating. too busy concentrating on not falling . :P

hey'all :D

2008-11-14T01:04:00.002+08:00

hahas. i decided to make my blog a open one again after many complains of not getting an invite..
and i'm pretty much too lazy to re-invite again. so yea. :D
anyways, went to ice-skate at kallang leisure center with melly melly! :D
hahas. it's been so long since i've last went out with her!
enjoyed the day! hahahas. somemore only the two of us. :P
tres romantik aye? ;D
anywhos, will post the picture tmr or so.
i'm excited for this sats "red vs white competition" & next sats "music cafe" !
basically, this is an event {red vs white competition}held by my church youths & mentors where the guys and girls compete in a series of games and all.
so it's gonna be a hell lots of fun! hahahahahahas.
oh yea, i'm bringing someone there too! :D
the girls are going to trash the guys this year too! :D
next sats event is the music cafe where all of us put up something musical to entertain everyone.
still am not sure of what my group is performing but i hope we'll do it well. :)
i can't wait to go out with kt too! {my long time friend (: }
we're going to the movies, though it's simple, i'm sure that we'll have a blast!
ohkays, i'll stop for now. see you peeps soon! :D

:D

2008-11-12T17:12:00.003+08:00

hello ! :D
i'm feeling very happy today, like all my troubles are finally gone!
hahas. actually, they're not gone, it's just that i've learnt to leave everything to God and he'll lead me through it all.
i've also started praying more often and i'm feeling great.
cause when i leave everything to Him, i know they're in good hands.
hahas. i got some help from friends too (:
thanks you guys ! :D
so yea, i'm trying to change now.
so watch out world! there'll be a whole new carmen soon! :D

depressed.

2008-11-10T20:41:00.004+08:00

after looking at everyone's blog, i've noticed how much they've changed and how much i haven't.
they're all working hard for their future while i'm ruining mine step by step.
what am i doing? i don't know.
i want to change. but,
change is hard.
seriously, it's damn hard.
i hope that God will be there through my changes.
& that he'll help me through it all.
started to attend church now. i hope i won't fall back to my previous pathetic state.
& i hope that my relationship with Him , ivan ,friends & family will be stronger than ever.
i pray very very very very hard now. everyday.
God, please listen to this tiny prayer of mine, and grant it. (:

ps. i am super in love with TOKIO HOTEL.
hahahas. bill kaulitz is my love !

ain't he cute/sexy or not? his twin is also cute too ! but bill is smexier ! :D

shopping spree ! :D

2008-11-04T16:22:00.007+08:00

went shopping with baby on the 2nd of November which is on a Sunday.
when i first saw him at citilink,i was so mad at him because he wasn't dressed properly.
i mean,i take time and effort to dress up nicely while he can just throw anything on without taking a look at the mirror.
so i dragged him to Topman and picked out many clothes for him to try on.
btw, he needs a new wardrobe..
his clothes are so little and OLD...[like him :P]
anyways,he bought a pair of jeans and a new top which were chosen by me.
and to top off the whole look, i bought him a bracelet from Topman too (:
hahas. it matches mahh.
so then i headed off to Diva while he went to change into his new clothes.
i saw many cute things that i'd love to have and so i practically went ga-ga at everything.
when he came to find me,i showed him everything that i liked and then he said he'll buy some for me which completely shocked me cause he seldom approves of me shopping!
so he ended up buy a bracelet,a pair of earrings and 12 different kinds of headbands for me ! (:
i am sooooooo HAPPY! :D
then we went to FOX apparel and i picked out a very nice top and shorts for him and a very nice dress for myself.
after trying it out, baby bought the top for himself and the dress for me ! :D [there's a 30% off too !]
i was all smiles and so i decided to change into that dress cause it matches his current outfit (:
after that,we went to many shops to browse through as there were many many many sales !
hahas. we ended up in Hula&co.
he bought me another dress again !hahahahahs.
i was so happy that my smile was practically plastered on!
so then we head off to bukit batok cause i wanted to join my mom and brother for dinner.
baby went home after that and that concludes my only shopping spree for this holiday ..
i can't really go out for some reasons so my life would not be as exciting as most of you peeps.
except that i'll be going to Taiwan on the 5th of December till 12th of December ..
anyways, i'll stop for now.. this is getting too long........ :P

fat fat fat fat fat .

2008-10-23T21:20:00.003+08:00

i am feeling super fat !
cause haven't been doing any sports ! teehees .
baby ! let's go running/swimming ! ;DDDD

tragic.

2008-10-23T15:12:00.002+08:00

ohmygosh !
choi wants to see my dad tmr .
most probably regarding my horrible horrible results .
how ? i'm really terrified that i won't be advance to sec4express next year !
ugh , i should have studied harder .
ah . ohmygoshohmygosh !
i sure hope she'll give me a second chance .
&i really hope i'll make the cut .
pray for me everyone ? please&thanks (:

dissapointed .

2008-10-20T18:51:00.001+08:00

i got back my results today .
am very dissapointed in myself .
i've been too complacent , thinking i would just whisk through this exam like how i always do .
but in the end , my results sucked like shit .
i still couldn't believe that those are my results .
i hope that my overall would be a pass ,
if not i won't be able to promote to sec4 express .
cross my fingers & prays very hard .
yeap . will end here .
p.s , i changed my blogskin , isit nice ? tag and tell me (:

i'm feeling lucky .

2008-10-19T01:08:00.003+08:00

hello (: haven't been blogging for a very long time ..

many things have happened during my absence here .

i've finally opened up my eyes to my surroundings .

i've also learned from this unexpected tragedy that i should cherish my family even more .

friends come and go , but family will always stay .

ain't that true ? ;) &i'm really glad that my family was there for me throughout the entire saga .

so , exams are over but that doesn't mean all the stress is gone .

i'm super stressed out for my results and all ..

and i'm not courages enough to face my fears .

guess i'll need a lot of pushing to face my fears . anywhos ,

i'm very very lazy now . so the clothes thing will have to wait .

& i seriously need to save up money man ..

times are bad and if i don't have any money at all , how am i going to survive ?

yea, i can depend on my parents but i would like to have a little 'personal money' by my side to back me up . so yea, trying to cut down on my spend-thrift ways .

i need to get materials to make some cards . for birthdays and etc .

and presents too . yup .

i'll wrap this up for now . will blog soon . [hopefully]

p.s i lost my cousin's wedding disc ! T.T

will post pictures up soon .

hello (:

2008-09-24T15:14:00.002+08:00

hahas . exam's are just round the corner and i'm getting stressed out .

so yea , here i am blogging .

i know i know , i haven't been blogging lately ...

hahas . too many things to do .

oh yea , i most probably won't blog from today till exams end .

hahas . so my sale of clothings will have to wait .

tmr is our 8th month-aversary . :DD

i am SUPERDUPER HAPPY that we've been together for such a long time !

hahahas .&i love him loads .

anyways , i may post up some pictures from time to time but with no text .

hahas . so yea . continue reading this blog !

don't desert it ! :P

postponed .

2008-09-13T13:53:00.002+08:00

hey guys (:

regarding the previous post about the concert .

seems like it's postponed till december cause of all the ongoing exams and all .

so yea , buuuuuttt , tickets are already on sale now . so get yours today ! ;D

hahas . ohyea , i'll probably post up the pictures for the clothes i'm selling in the next few posts .

so stay tuned ! and please ... TAG .

hahahas .

SCHOOL INVASION TOUR FINALE : IN ROCK , WE TRUST .

2008-09-10T08:58:00.002+08:00

hey hey hey ! ;D

the 'School Invasion Tour Finale' is finally here ! :D

hahas . so yea , people , if you're interested ,

gimme a shoutout cause you can get the tickets from me @ only 12$ !

hahas . if you get it at the door , it'll be 15$ .

oh yea , it's held on the 14th September, Sunday 2008.
@ Republic Polytechnic, The Republic Cultural Centre, Theatre. (Next to Woodlands MRT Station)

430pm - 930pm

the bands featured are as folowing -

Allura
Jack Rai
Plainsunset
The Fire Fight
A Vacant Affair
West Grand Boulevard
The Great Spy Experiment

so yea , it'll be a rocking concert ! ;D

hahas . so hurry up y'all ! ;D

get your tickets NOW !

http://www.myspace.com/invasionsingapore

i don't want to go back .

2008-09-07T01:36:00.004+08:00

school is starting in like less than 24hours .

this is so sad ... T.T

although i did get some things settled before a new school term starts ! :D

like ...

1. getting a tuition teacher .

2. finished up my english project . [almost .]

3. shopped till my hearts content . [not really .. okay , not .]

4. seen two good movies . ;D

hahas . okay , anyways ,

i'm hoping to earn some cash so yea !

PEOPLE ! I AM SELLING SOME OF MY NEVER BEEN WORN CLOTHES . :D

and please , i am NOT FAT okay ? i'm a size S , M for goodness sake !

open up your eyes and see that this is all an illusion because i am a freaking 174cm tall girl .

so yea , don't worry , my clothes can fit you .

except , that is , you're a size L , XL or XXL .

so yea , will post some photos up . [if i can find the time to do .]

or you can just ask what i have or what you hope to get . :D

okay , i'm off for now . so people ! spread the word . :D

thanks (:

[p.s , the stuff i'm selling are going at a really low price . i'm practically giving it away . so yea ! support !]

sick .

2008-09-04T14:25:00.002+08:00

hey , sorry for the no post .

so yea , been busy for the past few weeks .

with friends and family . hahahahahas .

i am also busy shopping . ;P

anyways , as you all can see , i am sick now .

bloody bloody sick .

so yea , went to the doctors' last night and did many stuff .

like acupuncture , 'gua sha' [which is bloody painful ] , re-adjustment of my spine , and 'ba guan' .

yea yea , it's a chinese sinseh . and a very good one .

his customers are all the celebs of caldecolt . so yea , very very pricey .

but so worth the money . cause i usually don't get well after a visit to the family doctor .

but whenever i visit him , he'll work his magic on me .

hahas . so i recover pretty fast . though the procedure is painful and scary .

[i am afraid of needles and blood . so get the picture ?]

hahas . i'm headin' over to saeyeon's place to do english project later on so yea .

hope i can concentrate . being sick is not good for concentration .

my head's hurting just by typing out this post so yea .

i'll end here . will post soon , and hopefully with pictures . hahas .

too lazy to upload .

*someone , just spam my tagboard if i don't post soon .*

supah lazy nunga nungas :D

2008-08-22T20:03:00.004+08:00

the book cum movie ;D [i am using font georgia , since the main character's names' Georgia .]
my other photo ;D

hahas . i just bought a new book called "Angus , thongs and perfect snogging "

super cool and funny book luh . hahas .

i've always wanted to buy that book but at that time , i guess i didn't have much money .

so when i saw it @Bugis kinokuniya and it was $21.40 for the movie volume ,

i bought it immediately ;D

hahas . apparently , it's a great book that became a movie .

they also gave a free bag with a super sweet and nice lippy ! ;D

which is like my absolute fav cosmetic product !

hahas . i have like 20 plus lippy , lip balm and lipstick .

i'm like nuts ! & that's not including the platelets ones .

hahahahahahas . ;D

okay , i'm going bonkers now . and my nunga nungas are tired . ;P

hee hees .

anyways , i'm freaking layyyyyzeeee to change my blogskin .

everyone's like changing it now .

but somehow or rather , i don't see the need in changing my pretty and sophis. blogskin .

ho hum . ;D

perhaps , i just don't want to bother myself with all the trouble like finding a supah nice blogskin again .

i remembered it almost killed me to look for this current blogskin when i first started out .

and i was doofus at it . i couldn't get the codes right and i ended up calling weishi for help .

hahas . so yea , this is credited to her ;D

hahahahahas . i'd rather go brush up on my stamina and train now .

hahas . ;D and also study really hard .

ho ho ho-s .

i'll stop now . ciao ! ;D

p.s , i'm currently not getting into my nuddy pants .

pp.s , i went to take my ic photo @bugis jean yip on wed , it turns out great ! ;D

ppp.s , these are my results :

english-19/30 ;D [second in cohort]

chinese-27/50 ,compo 30/50 ;D B3!

maths-11/40 D;

combined chemistry-4/40 DDD;

combined biology-18/40 DDDD; [two more marks leh !]

combined geography-17/25 ;DDD

combined socials studies-8/19DDDD; [one more mark leh !]

principles of accounts-60/100 ;DD

food and nutrition-32/43 ;DD [one more mark to A1 !]

so overall , i failed maths and science . DDDDDDD;

so far so good ;DD

2008-08-20T09:42:00.001+08:00

it's only the first lesson we have today and i'm already beaming ;D

i'm like a grinning bobcat now .

grinning from ear to ear . hahahas . ;D

that's because i did really well for my f&n common test (:

hahas . i got a2 , but if i had one more mark , i'll get a a1 .. D;

and i guess my coursework will pull my grades down but not by a lot .

because theory is 60% weightage so yea (:

hahas . but i still hope that i can get that one more mark .

hahas . now i'm anxious to know my english marks .

i hope i don't fail . D;

D;

2008-08-19T19:48:00.002+08:00

i failed biology by 2 marks .

2 freaking marks . DDDDDDDDDDDDD;

and i failed social studies by 1 mark ..

DDDDDDDDDDD;

i seriously want to kill myself man .

anyways , i passed poa , 60/100 ;D

then i passed combined humanities .

so i only failed combined science and maths .

i so hope i pass english and f&n .

*crosses my fingers real hard while praying really really hard .*

cya ! ;D

finally blogging . hahahas ! ;D

2008-08-18T22:45:00.008+08:00

laura and i on the ice-skating ring
i know it may seem that i'm fat but i'm not .
i'm in the middle of two cushions so yea, that's why it sinked .
my adidas jacket which laura is wearing ;D
the four of us ;D
goofing around ;D
on my birthday ;D
the cocktail dress ;D
my puffy eyes .
in black and white
at thomson starbucks.
~

okay , so my birthday celebration was seriously great ! ;D

and i got to celebrate it two times ! ;DDD

one is on my birthday , 0908 and the other is on 1608 .

on 0908 , me , mom and lil brother met up with the boyfriend ;D

hahas . mom dolled me up that day and i must say , it turned out great ! ;DD

hahas . then we went shopping , i spent like 100++++ that day .

got a new adidas original purple hoodie jacket which cost $95 ,

cocktail dress from frontieer at $55.90 ,

and much more donations . ;P

hahahas . then we went to lido to catch "journey to the centre of the earth ."

quite a good show , not bad ;)

hahas . then went to tcc for late night dinner and coffee !

i seriously know how to live a good life . ;D

and i'm only fifteen ! hahahas .

hey ! but i don't take things for granted hor !
hahas . okay , so then the next day i had to go with my mom's side of the family to the

columbrium to visit my grandfather , grandmother [mom's side] ,cousin , auntie and great grandma .

my late grandpa arranged it that way . (:

how ironic isit ? when i was in primary 3 , my grandpa passed away on the day before my birthday . at that time , i didn't understand much about dying .

i only know they're gone . i hadn't experienced death of a family member until that day .

before he passed away , my family went to the hospital to visit him .

he was actually doing quite well .

i knew he always doted on me . i can see from pictures of my being carried lovingly by him when i was young .

he had always doted on my mom the most so yea , i guess he doted on me and my brother more cause of that .

anyways , i was being a brat that day . after i found out that my grandpa passed away and that i had to cancel my birthday party , i screamed and shout all night .

i cried and was being a brat by asking and scolding my grandfather .

i screamed "why must you choose this day to die !"

looking back now , i feel very very very guilty .
i regretted saying that . i wished i was more mature at that age .

people say i'm mature beyond my age .

but i don't think so . so yea , when i see my beloved 'gong gong' in the columbrium ,

it just brings me back to that day . tears just begged to come out of my eye .

but i didn't want the whole extended family to see me cry so i blinked back tears and walked away to talk to my aunt .

after that , went to eat at fortunate restruant and then for coffee at 'old town' .

the one that mark lee opened . hahas . great food and great coffee ;D

oh yea ! i also received many many many many ang baos and presents ! ;D

i got a uber cute puma handbag from my cousins , ang baos from my relatives and many more ! ;D

hahahas . okay , then after that is common test which i hoped i did well for ss , english ,f&n .

i failed maths . D:

but but but ..
i got b3's for both chinese and geography ! ;D

chemistry no hope liao .

so yea , *God , please let me pass !*

after ct2 , on sat , which is 1608 ,

the boyfriend , laura the bestie and wilson the fatty went to kallang leisure centre to ice-skate with me ! ;D

fortunately , none of us fell but laura couldn't skate at all ..

hahahas . ;P but after two hours of none stop skating ,
we managed to teach her how to skate for short distance ! ;D

hahahas . after that , i found out i lost my bracelet .

which i bought on my birthday . T.T

i wanted to cry man . but baby said he'll buy me the exact same one soon !;D

hahas . so yea , i became much happier and we continued shopping ;D
we went to this exhibition on stuff from the olden days . seriously brings back lots of memories .

though the items were seriously overpriced .

hahas . then wilson had to go home and it's only me , the boyfriend and laura .

we went to britishIndia and Wh to shop . [eh , sorry arh , i was the only one shopping . ;P]

hahas , then i bought this seriously super nice long flowy skirt which cost $189 ! and i very very nice white dress ;D

hahas . then we went to bukit batok west mall for dinner where we met up with my mom , uncle raymond and brother .

uncle raymond treated us to sakae , then ice-cream and then movie ! ;D

princess is super duper happy . hahas . THANKS ! ;D

we watched 12lotus . a seriously sad but artistic show .

hahas . then after then we went home .
so yea , that's about it

hahas . i gtg now , if not i'll get hand cramps soon .

hahahs . will blog soon ! ;D

picture time ! ;D

2008-08-07T23:54:00.005+08:00

handicrafts me and aunt rachel made ! ;D
these are the ones i made ! ;D

tokki ! outstreched ! ;D
what was i thinking ? ;P
me and kim saeyeon ! ;D
faith and i @ thomson plaze toilet ! hahahas . ;D
my body is super long !! ^^
my birthday gift from daddy ;D ♥

after a long break ;)

2008-08-06T09:04:00.002+08:00

hey all ! ;D i'm finally back from my so called "break" .

hahas . missed me ? ;P

okay , so yea , shortly after my last post , i went out with faith , sean , luke and my baby .

hahas . we went to thomson plaza after school for dinner .

we had lots of fun ! hahahs . baby clicked well with the kids ;D

hahahas . after that we headed home , faith and her two little brothers went over to my place to play " Guitar heroes 3 " on baby's xbox360 .

luke is very good at it and he never played the game before !

neither did he ever touch a xbox before .

hahahas . so yea , we had a great time until i felt feverish . then faith called her dad to pick her up . and thennn ..

dun dun dun ...

i fell sick . T.T

hahahas . i had a high fever because of my damn tonsils .

stupid tonsilities . at first , i was suspected of dengue , but end up it was just my damn tonsils .

ugh ugh ugh . {cringes}

so yea , was absent from school from tuesday till thursday . went back on friday .

hahahas . then saturday night , mom bought me to Dome for my early birthday dinner ;D

for four person , we ended up paying 150dollars or so . T.T

hahahas . what can i say ? we CAN eat . ;D

then slacked at mommy's place and went back on sunday night .

oh yea , i got money for my bithday ! ;D

now i can buy loads of stuff ! hahahahhas .

last night , daddy even bought me a white and yellow gold heart necklace !

it's lovely ! hahahs . will post picture when i get home .

i'm currently in school now . in f&n lesson .

i have like 30mins more to my chinese common test .T.T

i seriously hate chinese ...

cause i can't write and read well .

but , i can speak well ! hahhahas . ;D

okay guys , for those who still doesn't know ,

this coming saturday , 09aug ,

is national day and MY birthday ! ;D

yay me ! hahas . but i'm not celebrating this sat as many of my friends are unable to come due to next weeks exam . T.T

so it'll be postponed to next sat guys ! take note kayys ?

hahas .okay luh , will stop here . gotta get back on my course work .

ta-ta ! ;D

p.s , i love baby and the previous post was his .

2008-07-31T00:40:00.002+08:00

Prologue:

Leaves are drifting,

in the summer cooling breeze.

The feel so lifting,

he tugs my blouse, teasing.

We sat by the beach,

gazing into the horizon.

As we watched the sun set,

it felt like it was just another sun rise.

For in our lives,

the sun never sets.

Ever constant, everlasting.

One little piggy, One little ruppy..

My little piggy, my little ruppy.

ironic .

2008-07-28T01:30:00.005+08:00

laura and me :D
the dinner i cooked for fatty .
what was i doing man ?
my favourite fatty :)

life is kinda rocky these few days .

i'm actually quite messed up but that's all part of life aye ?

after reading what weishi posted on her blog .

i kinda wished i was brave enough to post what she had posted .

i've always wanted to tell him all those .

tell him what to do in different situations .

but i ain't got the guts and courage .

so yea .

bravo weishi . i'm glad that you posted it up ;)

i hope he sees this .

so he can go and read that post , and finally understand how i feel . ;P

we haven't been taking pictures haven't we ?

i guess i'm not in the mood for cam whoring these few days .

but i do hope that energy will come back soon , cause my blog is seriously lacking in visuals .

hahahas .

i've been having guests these few days , which is a good thing cause i'm normally alone at home now .

as dad's been working and all .

so yea , i'm a lonely child .

so i thank God for blessing me with friends who are there for me in my times of need .

thanks faith , for what happened on saturday .

you've brightened up my night and you've let me know that i have a friend like you .

i thank you .

i thank God , i thank everyone .

to end this post , i would want to ask for something .

if you're reading this , please grant me this tiny wish .

~
let me be your child , forever . ♥

BE JEALOUS YO !

2008-07-22T01:02:00.002+08:00

oh yea . i seriously need to change my blogskin . but i'm really lazy .

so it'll have to wait .

andddd .

I MAY BE GOING TO SINGFEST !!!! >3<

MOM IS CONSIDERING ! HAHAHAHAHAHAHAS .

SO EVERYONE . BE JEALOUS YO ! ;DDDD

okay.that's all for now .

byes . ;D

love is really in the air .

2008-07-22T00:28:00.004+08:00

love . it's such a big word .

yet only one special meaning .

one that only we know it ourselves .

for me ,

love is a wonderful thing .

something magical .

yet disastrous at the same time .

but , for that wonderful feeling ,

i would give everything up .

just to get that feeling back again .

some may say i'm a sucker for love .

but i don't mind .

this is me and this is who i am .

why should i bother about what people says ?

i've been trying to follow this mentality for a very long time .

but it was hard .

but now , with the correct support from all my friends and family .

i've finally learned the true lesson .

i've learnt to accept and be happy with whatever thing i've got .

and try to make the best out of it .

;D hahahas .

seems like a good start to finally walk out of my comfort zone .

one which i've been a permanent resident for almost all my earth years .

i just hope i continue to get that support .hahas .

for the past week .

it seems like a great week to me .

even though there are some mis-understandings and quarrels ,

i manged to overcome each and every one of them .

and turned the whole situation back to how i should be .

it does takes two hands to clap .

i've learnt that too .

oh yea ! me and baby caught " the dark knight " with his friends on saturday night .

it was a great movie .

hahas . 2hours and 30mins . very worth it .

and heath ledger and christian bale's acting was really up to par ! ;D

ahahas .

oh yea . one more thing !

i've finally learnt how to play MAH-JONG !

on sunday , my church friends taught me how to play it .

hahas . i'm still quite lousy , but with practice , i'm sure i can ace it ! ;D

okay okay , back to the main topic .

love is really , REALLY in the air .

most of my friends have found their one true love .

and i hope that it lasts forever .

;D i really am happy for you guys ! ;D

hahahas .

and guess what ?!

this friday is our 5th month-aversary .

;DDDDD

hahahahs . but we're not going to celebrate it .

cause he's busy with work and we didn't plan anything at all .

it's alright ! ;D we'll just make our half-aversary a BIG BIG ONE !

hahahas . okay , i got to head back to study now .

will post soon !

replies to tag .

2008-07-21T10:43:00.002+08:00

supergirl-sharon ; abby

~ there ! i posted already ! hahahs . somemore in school . ;D loves !

supergirl-laura

~ hahas . love you too babe ! ;D

supergirl-faith[my favourite fatty]

~ hahahhahas . must read and tag my blog hor ! hahahas . loves ! ;D

a letter . to you (:

2008-07-17T19:16:00.004+08:00

i don't feel neglected .

i feel loved ,

i know you love me .

from the bottom of your heart .

i know you'll never do anything intentionally to hurt me .

i know you feel sad whenever i'm sad .

i know you want to always be there for me .

i know you're busy with work .

so busy that you barely had time to breathe .

i also know the reason behind all these .

because ,

you're working for a better future for the both of us .

you're working for me .

i love you ivan ng .

& thanks for your love .

thanks for the care .

thanks for the concern .

we're going to reach our goal for sure .

no doubt .

cause i'll always be by your side ♥

xoxo , your girlfriend ,

carmen♥

omgosh . i'm so happy ! ;D

2008-07-16T08:30:00.004+08:00

i edited the previous previous post . hahahs .

so yea . check it out ! ;D

there's some minor changes like names and all .

oh , and i'm blogging in school .

today two whole hours of f&n is free ! ;D

miss lin finally didn't come to school .

i was smiling like shit .

hahahas .

oh , and i had a great dream too ! will post about details later on .

ps . it'll be like a story ! ;D

hahahahas .

i'm a happy girl .

did i mention dumb too ?

i left my specs at home .

so now i can't see properly .

die luh .

why am i so blur and forgetful ?

ugh .

hahahahas . okay , that's all ! ;D

lesson learned .

2008-07-15T22:54:00.003+08:00

After The Rain ,

The Sky Is Clear Again .

The Earth Is Beautiful Once More .

after all that has happened ..

i start to question the character a person possesses .

i thought character in oneself can never be changed .

but i guess i was wrong .

due to prolonged [radio-activeness ] one can change his or her character .

oh yea . and personality .

as the saying goes ,

twice bitten , shy no more .

or so i improvised . ;P

hahahas . so yea .

i finally know .

i really know .

and i'm finally aware .

i'm happy that i've stumbled into this part of my life .

where everything is finally clear .

black and white .

no more grey .

no more suspisions .

thank you Lord ♥ .

bye bye

2008-07-14T23:25:00.003+08:00

after listening to mariah carey's "bye bye" repeatedly .

i realised , it's not time to say bye yet .

or never .

when someone dies , his or her spirit will always be with us .

in our hearts as we've already prepared a special place for each and everyone .

so they'll always be living in us .

forever and ever .

till the day we die and we finally get to see them again .

this time , reunited forever .

so everyone , look towards the sky .

look for the light .

look for that special place in your heart , and you'll always know that the special someone is living in your heart . forever and ever .

in loving memory of my beloved grandma ,

teng swee leng ,

20jan2008

i miss you . i love you . ♥

HAPPY BIRTHDAY UNCLE ! ;D

2008-07-13T23:48:00.004+08:00

hahahs . okay , so i'm not late !

hahahhas . happy birthday uncle yongjian ;D

may your muscles grow bigger every passing year !

hahahas . so you can live up to your "muscle man" name !

hahhas . enjoy ! ;D andddddd ,

TAG ARH ! ;DDD

xoxo, jiamin ;

your niece ♥

ps , alamak . i don't have any pictures of you ! next time must take some . ahahhas .

i'm finally not lazy to blog .

2008-07-13T23:18:00.003+08:00

hahas . hello y'all ! ;D

i'm finally not lazy anymore . guess it's because it's been getting boring nowadays ;D

hahahs . my birthday's coming up so yea , mom's trying to get me a present .

but nothing seems to attract me leh . hahas .

she's buying a branded bag for me seeing i'm simply in love with bags .

hahas . i am in love with clothes but seeing she just bought me a bunch of new clothes ,

she decided that i need bags to match with the outift .

hahas . ;D

i simply love going out with my mom . just the two of us .

cause we can like hang out , talk , shop and just do whatever we want .

i'm really close to my mom so yea .

we went shopping last last week i think ..

and she bought me tons of stuff !

i bought stuff for myself too ;D

and there's this crazy sale at Divas .

it's like all the accersories are on super crazy sale !

hahahahs . i got like 5 items and they only cost me 3dollars each ! ;D

hahahahas . i saved like 20 dollars ?

okay . if i continue on like this , i think it'll be a 3 page long essay .

hahahahs . oh yea ! OURVE4 was great ! ;D

hahahs . baby went to meet me and my friends after the performance ended ;D

everyone clicked well with him too ! ;DD

i am a very happy girl !

ahahhas . baby also bought me a superman shirt from DC comics too !

i really love him a lot . i'm glad i have him in my life ;D

{ i love you ivan ng ♥ }

blogging in school ;D

2008-07-09T09:41:00.001+08:00

hahahs . hey ! ;D

i'm currently in school now having food and nutrition class .

it's a whole 2 hours ! T.T

but today's lesson is relatively okay luh .

cause we're studying on diets today .

hahahs . quite fun .

oh yea , and miss lin bought us heinz baby food today !

guess what ? she gave me my favourite !

STRAWBERRY AND RICE YOGURT DESSERT ! ;D

hahahas . and then there's the egg thingy which tasted like whipped cream so it wasn't really yummy . then jutlandia took the macaroni one . hahahas . quite nice but wayyy too bland . hahahas . okay my main reason here is to put this link up so i won't forget !

www.foodnetwork.com

tired . tired . even more tired .

2008-07-08T22:19:00.001+08:00

basically . i'm really tired . so i'm not going to blog .

sorry you guys . i'll update when i have the mood to do so .

drifting apart .

2008-07-03T22:28:00.009+08:00

what's the purpose of having friends and being one ?

i guess it is to always be there for each other and all .

but someone rather , this doesn't really apply much to the friends i thought i had .

they call me their friends . but i feel not .

i treat them as though they're like my own family .

they make use of me .

i feel hurt . and nobody even bothers to ask how was i feeling .

sure , they're there only when someone from my family leaves me for a better place .

but after all the hoo-ha , they don't bother anymore .

i feel that it's difficult to blend in . i'm like a big toe sticking out of nowhere .

somehow , they started to forget about me .

forget that i was once their friend .

once their family .

once their confidante .

all of them says that we're one big family .

but to me , i feel more like an outcast .

i really have been drifting apart from them .

i sincerely want to change to a different enviroment .

but i don't have the guts and i just can't bear to leave ..

it just feels like the only real true friends i have are those from school and the friends i make outside .

not those whom i've grown up with .

seems funny eh ?

but it's not . and these are all true .

it's weird . but that's the way of life .

life is hard . and i'm learning everyday to cope with all the task and problems .

i'm happy to have friends who care and i thank you all dearly .

from the bottom of my heart .

that means royce , faith , laura , saeyeon , kimzy , yishan , khai , edward , dominic , shouyat , sharon , maingkun , kaiting , yongjian , yongjing and lots more .

i love you guys ;D

pimple queen ;D

2008-07-02T17:07:00.006+08:00

hey hey hey ! hahas .

wow ! this week is kinda fun , interesting and exciting ! hahas .

so many things happened in just 3 days .

i shan't say the exciting thing cause it may offend someone . and afterall ,

this is no private blog . so yea . but to those who were involved too ,

"she's a freaking bitch ." hahaha . ;D

ooooookay . yea , i just found out today that my f&n coursework must finish research by this week . then next week is decision planning ..

thing is . I HAVEN'T EVEN TOUCHED RESEARCH AT ALL !!

i got to "chiong" like a mad woman .

hahas . oh yea , laura came over to my house two days ago .

we had lots of fun too ! hahahas . we even went down to the pasar malam near my house to walk walk .

hahahahahas . i am also in love with david cook and david archuleta .

they're super hot luh ..

yishan's blog has this song called "always be my baby [david cook's version]" and i'm totally hooked to it .

i find this song has a very special meaning ;D

okay , i went web hopping and i found this commercial for guitar heroes in the U.S .

and guess who are the celebs in this ad ?

DAVID COOK & DAVID ARCHULETA ! ;DDDDDD

IT'S LIKE DOUBLE HAPPINESS TO ME MAN ...

HAHAHAHAHHAHAS .

below's the link , go check it out !

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=b_MmOUZ085s&feature=related

okay . i'm going to end soon but one last thing .

this friday is our school concert called the OUERVE .

yea , and i'm going with my gurlfriends;D

hope it turns out great and that i'm not wasting my 12bucks .

hahahahas .

loveloves ♥,

suicide . the way to go ?

2008-06-29T23:13:00.003+08:00

life is certainly not going well for me .

school is still okay , for i've found some reliable and trust-worthy friends .

at least that's one good thing compared to all the bad things i'm facing now .

as i grow older . i find it hard to confide in someone .

even him .

i do know that i can always confide in God . but ,

it's just not the same .

i know he hears me . but i don't .

i need some verbal help .

someone to share my worries , woes and sadness .

i'm still not recovering well from the many deaths of my family members .

after all , i'm only 14 .

even i could not trust this blog . as it's not private and many people can read it .

i'm too lazy to make it private as there's quite a number of e-mails to punch .

i just hope someone would come to my rescue now .

i just hope i can survive yet another turmoil .

and for BINGBING who's probably reading this .

don't MAKE FUN OF THIS YOU PIG . hahahas . :D

i'm feeling very insecure .

2008-06-26T22:02:00.002+08:00

like wth ? stupid blogger don't let me save my previous post .

now i have to re-type them all again . ugh !

oh wells , i just think that i'm exactly like a unstable rocking boat .

i mean , i get influenced by people and views VERY easily .

everything i believed in , just changes within a matter of time .

ugh . why do i even bother to have menses ??

if i can choose to have menses or not . i would choose the latter .

ugh .

i'm ugly , laura's fugly , yishan's pugly .

"she ain't got no alibi ! she ugly !

U-G-L-Y , she ain't got no alibi !

she ugly ! she's major ugly , OH !

she's fat and pugly OHMYGOD ,

now the cow says MOO ."

hahas . that was sung by stewie from Family guy ,

he's my favourite character in the show ! ;D

hahas . oh wellls , i better start slimming down .

feeling really fat man .

people , please do not spam my blog . and do not comment .

it's my blog and i set the rules . thankyouverymuch .

i am so easily influenced .

2008-06-26T21:49:00.002+08:00

oh my gosh . i'm just like an unstable rocking boat .

my mood , thoughts and everything i believed in can be changed within a few comments and views .

gosh . why do i even bother to have menses ?

being a girl is realllly tough .

now i'm feeling super insecure and fat .

i think i'm fat and ugly .

so i'm fugly .

that makes sense . seems that i'm ugly , laura's fugly and yishan's pugly .

"she ain't got no alibi ! she ugly ! she ugly !

u-g-l-y ! she ain't got no alibi ! she ugly !

she's major ugly OH !

she's fat and fugly OH MY GOD ,

now the cow says MOO !"

hahas . i love little stewie from the family guy .

he's like my favourtie character luh .

i really need to slim down .

i really feel very very very fat .

ugh . people , do not comment please . and my blog's not for spamming .

thanks and goodbye .

OUR FOURTH MONTH ! ;D

2008-06-25T22:49:00.003+08:00

hahas . today is our fourth month .

" wow ! how time flies ! "

i get that a lot nowadays . hahas .

but , i'm glad we made it .

;) oh yea , today is so funny luh .

today is not only me and baby's anniversary .

it's also sharon and kailshen's 10th month ,

jutlandia and laura's 2nd lesbian month ,

wilson's birthday . and who did i miss out ?

anyways , it's been a jam packed day .

hahas . i'm really tired these past few days .

wondering what's wrong . hahas .

baby came over just now and it was really nice .

i mean it's his third year in poly and it's been hard on him .

3 major projects and they are not the kind we deal in our school .

those are like business kinds . so yea .

i haven't been giving much credit to him .

so i felt guilty .. but baby's as understanding as always ;D

hahas . and that's what i LOVE about him .

see uncle ! i found out what i love about him ! hahahas .

so yea . i just wana thank some people while i'm at it .

these people helped me figure my way out .

-uncle ,

-kor ,

-baby ;D

-my gurlfriends in school ;D

so yea . hahas . LOVE YOU GUYS LOADS . ♥

okay . i'll stop for now . gotta get some zzzzs .

tmr is a looooooong day .

2hours of bio , 2hours of p.o.a.

i think i'm going to fall asleep in one of these classes . HAH !

loveloves !

crash and burn .

2008-06-23T19:03:00.005+08:00

why do people act as someone they're not ?

i know of one particular person who's like that .

why oh why pretend you're someone thats not you ?

you're special just the way you are .

if you hadn't tried to be like some other party ***** ,

i wouldn't be so mad and disgusted by you .

like wth .

ripping photos off the net and posting it as your own ?

that's low man .

changing people like changing clothes is also a must huh ?

oh wells . i don't frigging care about you no more .

if you want to crash and burn .

go ahead . i won't stop you .

i just brought dumb to a whole new level .

2008-06-19T00:21:00.003+08:00

ugh ! i'm the dumbest ass in this whole world man !

i didn't even know school starts next monday ! T.T

i didn't even know i worked throughout the whole of my june holidays !

i am seriously so stupid .

i have to complete my homework assignments soon .

but i'm too lazy ! someone please irritate me to do it please ?!

oh , and i need help on maths !

i am a very sad child ...

ps. SAEYEON'S BACK ! ;D

holidays .

2008-06-18T17:50:00.004+08:00

holidays can be so boring .

it can also be so much fun .

depends on the person him/herself .

for me . i decided to work . instead of going out with friends to shop like mad .

missed out on so many wonderful moments .

but i tried my best to live those days to the fullest .

or so i thought . hahas .

anyways , i'm still sick so i can't freaking go out at all .

i've got the cash . but i ain't got the time .

how to shop ? T.T

been hoping for new clothes and bags . cause i'm seriously in need of it .

so that i can stay savvy .

but i can also try matching my old clothes . for a new and funkier look .

but oh wells . damn my lazy personality .

i've been trying ! i swear ! i've been trying real hard to kick this habit away .

but i need someone to help me with .

gotta really go find some time to go out man .

tmr there's work all the way till sunday . and my holidays are ending soon .

gotta start craking on my holiday assignments .

really should go take a second bath . cause the first didn't work out well at all .

still am feeling lazy . yup . layyyzeeeee ...

i can't help wanting going back to school ...

ain't it funny ? while schooling , we're all counting down the days to our holidays .

but once it starts , you dread the long hours , doing nothing at all .

then you'll start to wish you're in school again .

but when it finally ends and you have to go back to school , you suddenly miss your holidays ?

hahas . i'm seriously feeling like this now . oh weelll . must be my urge to shop makes me feel like this huh ?

i need to get out .

hello ! ;D

2008-06-17T15:15:00.003+08:00

i seem to be in a good mood today .

was sick so i didn't went for the day camp .

i seem to be really lazy man .

for the past 2 or 3 weeks i haven't been blogging .

working , sleeping , shopping and playing must have taken up most of my time .

hahas . currently i'm still working .

my third job of the year .

woo hoo ! ;D

i'm actually doing roadshows . so yea .

now i know being a promoter can be fun and rewarding . but also at the same time ,

super tiring . hahas .

but the pay's quite okay . so now i can afford all the things i've been secretly craving for !

hahahs . made lots of new friends too .

networking is important too ! and it's never too late to start ! ;D

oh yea , i went to baby's friend's dog farm the other day and i played with [almost] all her doggies ! hahas .

total of : six fully grown siberian huskys , three baby siberian huskys and six active jack russells !

i'm such a dog lover . hahas . love them loads man .

okay then , i'll stop for now . getting lazy liao .

oh yea ! yesterday's camp was super duper extra fun ! hahas . we went for yoga lessons ! super funny luh .

the teacher kept saying 'smile ! remember it's fun yoga ! '

while we were like trying to twist like pretzels . hahas .

super funny .

i'm off now , ;D

loveloves ! ♥

p.s , i'm too lazy to upload photos . will try to for the next post ! ;D

happy third month-aversary ;D

2008-05-26T01:08:00.004+08:00

yay ! today is our third month-aversary ;)

oops ! i mean yesterday (:

went to church with baby and after service , we went to eat at botak jones (:

ordered chilli con carne and cajun chicken .

taste great ! hahahas .

then went to baby's house to help out with his school work and played with tokki-dokki ;)

[that's her new nickname .]

seems like her rash is getting worse .

so after that , we met xining , chunai and sebas at vivo to go and consult the vet at pets safari .

the vet said that he can't diagnose anything without tokki there .

so we asked about the price and all and it's going to be real expensive .

guess all the clothes i want will have to wait .

since my baby tokki-dokki is more important than that .

;( i hope she'll get better soon .

after that , we went to daiso to get a few things .

i got a apple scented oil to help me sleep well and a very cute letter pad .

baby got two figurine casing for his star wars figurines .

he has a obssession with star wars . hahahas .

then we went to watch 'Indiana Jones ; and the kingdom of the crystal skulls .'

great show ! hahas . ;D

after that we went to the famous beancurd shop near 'Cathay' .

ate supper and baby bought me my favourite !

PORTUGESSE EGG-TART ! ;D

YUM !

ahahas . did i mention baby bought me a new happy house handphone strap ?!

i love yesterday so much ! ;D

then we took 166 back home .

i start work tmr . hope i do well (:

oh well , time to hit the hay sack .

nights ! ;D

loveloves ♥

p.s , i'll always love you .♥

shit school .

2008-05-23T11:02:00.003+08:00

wtf ! my school made us go for more lessons again ! and it's interfering with my job .

wtf . wtf . wtf . wtf . wtf . wtf .

i hate this school man ! why can't they just tell us everything earlier and at the same time ?!

they never tell us before-hand and expects us to fufill their every demands ?

wtf is going on with this school ?!

they keep changing the timings , they keep piling up new stuff on us .

what do they take us for ?

they think we're robots built for all that ?!

wtf . we're NOT ROBOTS .

they keep asking us to find some experience during the school holidays like go and find a job and all . but DO they give us the time ?

they keep changing dates , piling up new stuff . how can one work with all these conditions ?

ugh ! if they change one more date , that's it man .

i'll just not go . i don't care .

ugh !

crappy weather makes people crappy .

2008-05-21T02:07:00.004+08:00

ugh . i hate this humid and hot weather . i don't mind getting stuck in a downpour now .

oh wells .

work's gonna start pretty soon .

loads of problems i have to settle .

so yea . i guess i'm a wreck and this is all whacked out !

i'm such a worry-head . i worry about EVERYTHING .

ah . i hope things in this world would be simpler .

or maybe i can just be immature ?

that way , i wouldn't know anything .

couldn't comprehend anything .

life may turn out to be great ?

who knows .

okay , it's 2.18 in the morning so maybe this post sounds a little weird .

pardon me for that .

oh wells , off to play sims 2 !

that should take the load off my mind .

loveloves ! ♥

yaadaa , yaadee , yaadoo .

2008-05-19T01:33:00.003+08:00

hey hey ! (: haven't been blogging lately ..

it's just that holidays are just around the corner ! WOOHOO !

[two days to be exact (: ]

hahas . so yea , went shopping with mom , relaxing with daddy , meeting baby and hanging out with friends (:

mommy is so totally great ! ;DD

it's such a great thing that mommy is a professional make-up artist !

if not , i wouldn't know what to do !!

hahas .

work is starting soon and my job insists that i have to put on makeup and all and for those who doesn't know me well , my mom doesn't allow me to use make-up as it just spoils our skin when we grow older .

so yea , told mom and she's afraid those people who's going to do make-up for me are going to over-use the products . like put on many foundation , clogging pores powder and yaadaa , yaadee , yaadoo .

so she brought me to THE FACE SHOP , and spent TONS-O-MONEY on me !

hahas . i feel bad , but mom seems to enjoy spending time with me .

hahas . oh yea , did i ever mention that my mom has TONS OF MAKE-UP ?

so she gave me many which are new and TOTALLY GREAT !

they're all from Estee Lauder . [cause she was their make-up artist last time .]

and yea , she gave me a crash course on how to use them .

it's all very simple and light cause i don't intend to always put on heavy make-up .

i'll only do it when i'm going to some gala event or a ball .

so yea , i turn out GREAT ! hahahas .

though i'm having some trouble with the eyeliner as my right eye is weaker .

oh yea ! speaking of EYES .

mommy agreed to get me daily colour contacts ! ;D

hahas . so yea , tmr , which is monday , i'm going out with my long time friend , KAITING !

we're going to bugis (: can't wait !

after that , going to mom's shop so she can re-teach me on how to put on make-up again .. hahas .

oh weells , that's all for now (:

loveloves ! ♥

shopping spree ! again .

2008-05-15T01:21:00.009+08:00

hey'all ! (:

had a great time today . woke up at 11 and realised i have a facial appointment at 11 !

so decided to change it to 1 .

place is at maju mall , opposite chomp chomp .

i didn't know how to go there by myself so i asked my mom . she told me that i can take 76 and so i took it . turns out her friend , whom she consulted , didn't really know and ended up giving her any bus number she could think of . so i ended up being LOST ! went all the way to upper payar lebar .

took a cab to the shop and got a little wet cause it was raining heavily .

had facial and massage ! finally ! my blackheads are all gone ! (:

after that , went to find mom to exchange the shoes .

on my way there , i was approached by this artiste agency called "UAN artiste management ."

was quite shocked initially but the guy told me not to worry and all and explained a little about the company . he asked for my number too and i gave it to him . he gave me his boss's business card too . it has the company's website . it's www.uanworld.com

after that , told mom and she asked me to call her once the boss calls me .

went to raffles city to change the shoe . ended up mom swap my previous pair for something she wants and bought me a new pair of shoes ! it's really nice and all but it's a bit too high . about 3inches ? but it's not heels . it's wedge or something . will post the picture up soon .

so yea , went to eat my late lunch and gossiped with mom a lot ! hahahhas . so bad luh . but it's all about her work stuff . seems like working life is really that horrible .

after lunch , went back to mom's shop to pick up my stuff , and then head to baby's place .

TOKKI'S NOT AFRAID OF ME NO MORE ! ;DDDD

hahahas . ivan's super mean luh ! when ivan carried tokki into the house to play , guess what was the first thing he said ?

he said , 'aiyo ! you so fat !' i was like , wth ?! why did you say she's fat as soon as you got hold of her ? so mean luh ! hahahas . but really hilarious ! (:

went to play guitar heroes 3 and i won ivan three rows straight ! hahahas .

but the last game i lost .

hahahas . after all that slacking and all . went home and slowly take my time to pack all my stuff . was pretty tired .

hahahas . oh well , that's all for now (:

loveloves ! ♥

p.s , i'm going to visit grandma's niche tmr after school . i hope i won't break down again . ;(

shopping spree ! ;D

2008-05-13T17:41:00.005+08:00

my heart shape necklace (:
my best friends necklace (:
my hair looks like it got a permed but it's actually cause i bun it up .
me and my flower brooch head band (:
my new guess shoes (:

yesterday , i had chinese listening and english oral .

was really afraid for my oral as i haven't really prepared for the picture discussion ..

but i aced the whole exam ! ;D

the teacher taking my exam is JENNY WONG .

the HOD of english and so when she keep saying 'very good' , i assumed i did really GREAT !

hahas . so much for all the fussing about failing . >.<

chinese listening compre was relatively easy too . BUT ! i almost failed .

WHY ?? BECAUSE I FORGOT TO BRING MY PENCIL CASE ! T.T

and so i tried borrowing pencils from brianna and the pencil backfired on me .

as soon as i wrote the letter "c" , the lead broke ! T.T

i was like WTH ?!

so i tried borrowing from other people and found that the majority of people don't bring extra pencils .. i manged to borrow one from adolphus though ! he must be so proud to save my life ! HAHAHAS .

so after exams , me , yishan and laura went for job interview and let me tell you this ! THE PLACE IS GORGEOUS !

the whole shop is very nicely funished and decorated . and it looks uber professional !

we got the job and then went to bugis junction to shop ! manged to get my lovely wooden heart necklace for only 6dollars ! it's such a steal !

i also got a flower brooch head band , a friendship necklace [shared with saeyeon] and a pair of gold hoops earing for my mom ;D

then we met saeyeon and went to take neoprints .

omgosh ! the neoprint machine in bugis sucks man . waste money only lor .

after all that , went to raffles city to meet mom and brother . went to shokudo japanese restruant which operates like marche (: super nice luh .

hahas . after that went shopping and mommy bought me a pair of guess shoes ! [will post it up (:] and she's also going to buy the disney edition birkenstock ! i love mommy ;D

went to agnes b to look around and they have this free gift in this fish bowl and i took one . turns out it's a okamoto condom ! hahas . super funny ! placed it back anyways .

yea , that's all for yesterday .

for today , i went to school for chinese oral and it was super difficult . the conversation part i really blanked out . the question was so difficult . but i think i just pass .

ahahs . school ended at 8.15 and went home soon to sleep . didn't go watch movie with faith , trisha , kim and sean . can't go out and i was really dead tired .

made a facial appointment for tmr at 11 and after that i'm going to find mom cause apparently , she saw the same guess shoes at another outlet where there is a 50% off !

so she ask me to go over to change the shoes into something else i want and then go to the other guess shop to buy that same pair of shoes for 50% off ! my mom is so cute ! HAHAHS .

so that's all (:

loveloves ! ♥

wonderful wonderful mother's day ;D

2008-05-11T21:46:00.006+08:00

baby and me again (: this is the pretty birkenstocks' i want ! ;D
boo ! ;D
peek-a-boo !
hahas . weirdo .. ;D
baby's feet and his macbook air !
baby and i at the lift (:

today is mother's day ! hahas .

to all the mom's out there , HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY !

woke up later today and missed service . the cause ?

throbbing headache and body aches . i think i'm VERY old .

like old ah ma like that . as soon as i wake up , my whole body's in pain ...

hahas . so baby tried all means to wake me up but i just ignored him until he VIDEO CALLED ME !

i picked up the phone but i was so sleepy that i just closed my eyes and tried to mutter a few words . hahas . he shouted into the phone to get me to wake up but i was too tired to bother , until he passed the phone to weishi and xining !

weishi saw my face and she went "eh ! 3g leh ! 3g leh ! hello jiamin !!! ;D " hahas . so funny luh .

then xining snatched the phone away to wake me up . alas ! i finally am awake from my slumber . so i went to take a bath and then went to church cause baby's there waiting for the other's to finish discipleship . found baby in church and we went into one of the classrooms to play with his macbook air .

while i was in the toilet , baby became a 2minutes cam whore . hahahahas . he took my phone to take pictures of himself luh ! hahahas . will post some later .

after that , we ate at amk market and went to amk hub to help chunai choose a diamond necklace for her mother . hahas . she's so sweet ! if i have the cash , i would get my mom that too .

after getting the necklace , we bid chunai goodbye as she's gonna head home while we wait for xining's boyfriend .

went to xining's place and slacked all the way . hahahahas !

I COMPLETED HOT DOG BUSH MANNNNN ! ;D

we ate dinner and baby and i went back to her room to use the com . baby was studying while i was playing other games .

xining and sebas were watching a movie . hahas . we went home soon after .

oh yea , my mommy isn't feeling well today . she has the fever and sore throat ..

poor mommy , today is her day and yet , she's ill . how ironic is that ?

she called me when i was on my way home and she told me about the birkenstock sandals that she's gonna buy for meeeee ! HAHAS . ! i'm getting the disney edition ! pretty pretty !

oh wells , that's all for today !

there's chinese listening comprehension and english oral tomorrow .

i'm a little worried for my english oral . cause i haven't check out the format for the picture discussion . gotta do that later . for now , i'm just gonna play and play . hahas .

i also have to go for job interview tmr .. wish me luck !

yea yea , my post is again , TOO LONG ! will stop for now . :)

loveloves ! ♥

emotional .

2008-05-10T23:50:00.003+08:00

i'll always love you ♥

taking the bus home .
i remembered something .
something so distant that it almost slipped my mind .
i remembered going to church and coming home with my grandma .
that was when i was still young .
i enjoyed her company .
i love her a lot .
i still do .
i regretted not going to church with her anymore since i went to secondary one .
how foolish was i to think that she'll be with me until i die just because i prayed for that .
now i'll never have the chance to accompany her anywhere .
she's gone . forever .
she's gone to a wonderful place .
but the pain still stings .
i'm glad she's happy .
but i want her here .
i miss her .
i do .
i do .
many a nights i cried myself to sleep .
seeing her bed , empty .
just breaks my heart .
she was a great mom , a great grandmother .
i really really love her .
her death was so sudden .
i didn't do much for her .
how i wish she was here now .
nagging at me to sleep early as there's church later .
i really miss her .
i do .
i do .
happy mother's day ma ma .
i love you . forever and ever .

your grand-daughter ,
jiamin ♥

annoying people .

2008-05-10T23:03:00.005+08:00

disgusting lady beside me .

today was a okay day luh . nothing much ..

i was over at mom's place last night after the chinese doctor's appointment . and guess what ?!

i saw the actress chen liping's husband ! he is also a actor but his name always eludes my memory . hahas . anyways , we [as in my mom , brother , aunt and cousin ] were all there chatting away when he [the actor] , and his mother entered .we were like 'whoa .'

hahas . but anyways , we didn't do anything [like gawking and all ] and continued our chatter .

then i noticed that whenever we're talking about a new topic , he'll turn and keep looking at us .
it just gives me the idea that he wants to join in the conversation too but he wants us to approach him first . hahas .

don't know luh . didn't care much either . ahahas . so after that , went to prata house for late night supper ! i ate the paper prata with ice-cream ! yumyum ! ;D and i had a glass of MILO DINOSAUR ! hahahas .

so at about 12.30 , we left the place and head back to mom's .

then i showed mommy my new blog and she was pretty impressed ! ahahas .

then we view other people's blog too . then i was forced to head to bed . ;/

so then woke up late today , had breakfast and slacked .. watch mtv and saw a number of delightful songs i would like to get my hands on . after that bathed and got ready and left the house heading to church .oh yea !

on the train to amk , this weird and disgusting lady was sitting beside me picking her toenails ! ewwww ! GROSS .

she seriously has no idea on how to behave in public . i mean , she's not a kid .

she's like 30++ . i even took a picture ! hahas . will upload it !

and so .. church was ... blah ..

some people just irritates me .

i mean , it's like totally not my fault that the pitch of the song is too high luh . but apparently , someone blamed it on me . like wtf !? hey loser ! i didn't compose the song mind you .

ugh . just pisses me off . so i decided to leave church early and head to baby's house .

had a little tiff with baby earlier on but we got over it . hahas . played with tokki and we found out that she had some sort of skin problems which made us both super worried . ;/ i wana take her to a vet once i get my hands on my allowance . i also found out that tokki jumped up onto the cardboard box that served as her 'bedroom' and she was left standing there for 4hours plus ! [baby's sister saw it when they leave the house for mother's day celebration thinking that she'll know how to jump down . they came back 4hours+ later .] poor tokki ! she must have been traumatised ! ;(

mommy's sorry she couldn't come over earlier ... anyways , i played guitar heros 3 on baby's xbox with his brother and it was a AWESOME game man ! can't wait to play again .

then went in to baby's room to use his brother's macbook while he uses his macbook air to 'study' . we ended up laughing and playing around with his brother . hahas .

"i ate wasabi yesterday and i turn and turn around to see my da pian come out like green tea ice-cream ." hahahahahahahhas ! HILARIOUS MAN . and then he created a blue tooth name for baby . 'kish mybols .' ahahhahahahahas .

his is 'phil mycok' and their sister's is 'taj myesh.'

oh man , i'm going nuts with this crazy bunch of people ! XD

after that , i went home at 10++ started to blog .

ah , i'm going off now . i think my posts are waaaaaaaaaaaay too long ... hahas .

loveloves !♥

YAY ! EXAMS ARE OVER !! ;D

2008-05-09T15:06:00.013+08:00

sean looks like a deer caught in the headlights !
faith , trisha and i ;)
super extra faith !
wow ! nice green pole ! ;D
retarded faith ! ;D
sister and brother (:
trisha and i , on the bus .

teevee reflection . pose 1 ; acting retarded .
sean and i (:
ain't sean the cutest ? ;P
trisha , seanie wonie pony and i ! ♥
trisha , sean and i .
teevee reflection , pose 2 ! ; SQUEEZE .
teevee reflection , pose 3 ; smile widely !
i look weird .. ahahas .
peace out yo .
trish and i @ faith's livin' room .
trish and faith !
faith , the pig-mouth ! ;D
faith and i (:

acting retarded in the lift .
squint !
what's up with faith ? ;P
kissy ! ♥
oh no , i seriously need to see a doctor .

hahahahas. finally my exams are all over ;D

oops , i really can sleep man .. i fell asleep after answering the first few questions on my exam sheet and there's a whopping total of 40 questions that have to be completed within one hour ! hahas . but i managed it ;P so exams ended at 9 and we are free to go home . but nooooooo , faith wanted to go out , hahahas . i told her i had no cash as i need to save it all up . yups ! i'm a good girl ;D so we went opposite to wait for kimmy and at the same time , think about where are we going next ! i suggested going over to my place cause there's my brother's ps2 , nitendo ds lite and my psp . hahas . so we all agreed but unfortunately , they didn't come over as faith couldn't reach her mommy cause her mommy apparently forgotten how to switch on her own handphone ! hahas . how HILARIOUS IS THAT ?!

so we went to faith's place to chill and i greedily ate 4 choco ice-cream balls ! hahahahs . they're D-E-L-I-C-I-O-U-S ! we kept taking pictures luh ! faith lor .. suddenly become cam whore .. hahahs . oopsies ! [faith : don't get offended arh .] hahas . so we stayed there till like 1.45 and decided we need to fill our tummies with yummies . head off to thomson plaza and met kimmy-cubs there . [p.s , kim went home earlier on. ]

we went to the foodcourt to eat and guess what ? we saw suyin and 6 teachers from our school ! [they're not there together .] it's like everywhere we turn , they're there . i felt like a prisoner surrounded by guards ...

ate lunch and then hop on the bus home . hahahas . oh yea , faith keep saying we have no life at all . after exams never go out . the thing is , i gotta save up money , faith has ballet , kim has a hanna party later [her couz getting hitched !] and trisha .. hahas . i don't know . she's very "sui bian " .

heading over to baby's later . for now , i just wana relax in my comfy adobe .

loveloves ! ♥

; i can't seem to post the photos below the post . so weird ..

and i got the job already ! ;D

TOKKI ! ♥♥♥

2008-05-08T21:54:00.005+08:00

cute tokki looking around ;D
in my arms ♥
her cute little body !

AHHHHH ! i couldn't take it anymore ! my super adorable baby rabbit is so cute ! [my boyfriend bought it for me ! ;D] hahahas. here's the link to the video baby took .
http://www.youtube.com/v/FehStp5YA_o&hl

enjoy ! ;D

loveloves ! ♥

almost done .

2008-05-08T14:53:00.013+08:00

hello . i'm not really happy at all . i know i should be jumping for joy because i've almost completed all my papers but i'm just not happy . why ? cause i've been tricked into something i really hate . you know sometimes your friends are just curious as in what's in your phone and all ? yea , well , i lent it to ys cause she was curious in what kinda new stuff i added into it . i was okay with that as i know she wouldn't do anything to upset me . so i just went ahead with saeyeon cause we were both complaining about the heat and decided to walk faster to thomson plaza where there's air-conditioning and all . we were the first to enter , followed by faith , kim , trisha , kevin and the rest . i saw ys and asked for my phone back , but she told me ky took it and then ky put the blame to ab and ab put the blame to na . they all said they didn't hold on to my phone , ys went ahead to look for l , ky quickly ran away after i asked where's my phone and ab and na were left dumbfounded . i then noticed that c'lin and yt were missing . i seriously can't deal with losing something as some unfortunate events happened in the past which i do not want to post it on a public blog . anyways , i started freaking out and tears just formed in my eyes . i really wanted to cry so badly that i couldn't talk properly . faith , trisha , kim and saeyeon were very worried and they started to search for the rest . kim had a hunch either ky or c'lin took it . she was so angry even though the phone wasn't hers but i was greatful for having a bunch of friends like them . saeyeon then went ahead thinking i was following her . [hahas . super blur .] then kim suddenly saw a glimpse of c'lin and ran up the escalator but c'lin was too fast for her . we then went up searching for them and we found them outside the gameshop . kim went forward and scolded them and demanded for my phone back . ky took my phone out from her bag and gave it to kim saying she didn't know my phone was in her bag ! like who would believe that ? a three year old can even tell that you're lying luh ! kim was so fed up that she wanted to scold her but ky was quick enough to grab her phone out and pretended to call someone . i just told kim to forget about it and we went to eat lunch at kfc . while eating , they appeared again ! they came in and ys went straight to me and apologized saying she didn't know ky would play such a prank . i just told her to forget about it . ky didn't even have the guts to look at me luh . she was hiding behind the guys . after awhile , they suddenly went over to pizza hut . ky was the first to stand , that just proves she's guilty , and the worst part is , SHE STILL HASN'T APOLOGIZED ! argh . that just pisses me off . kim got so mad that she wanted to go over to confront her . but faith managed to stop her . hahas . cute little sean also wanted to confront her for his "big sister" . so adorable luhh ! i told him no , it's okay cause i don't want to make matters big . so after lunch , kim's mom drove me home but we did a pit-stop at the gas station cause mrs yap wanted to get her car wash . OOOOOO ! did i ever tell you that i simply LOVE CAR WASHES ?! hahas , yes i do ! they're so fun luh . i was just telling kim if i were the workers , i would have a blast of a time ! hahas . cause i'll be playing around and getting drenched in sudsy water ! hahas . i'm such a weirdo ... o.o the workers there then asked if kim and i were sisters cause we look so much alike ! except that i'm a golden tan and kim's dark . ahahas . no wonder we're 'twins' ! ;D
after that , we proceeded home . on the way i was telling kim and mrs yap about what i read yesterday . i read about the fritzl incest case which totally disgusted me . i mean , HOW CAN A FATHER TRAP HIS OWN FRIGGING DAUGHTER IN A DUNGEON FOR 24 YEARS AND RAPE HER COUNTLESS TIMES ?!! i mean really , what kinda shinanigens is this ? the girl's name is elizabeth , she's 42 now but she looks way older than her age cause she has vitamin d deficiancy due to not being exposed to the sun for 24 long years . he even made her pregnant 6 times ! and she gave birth to all 7 all by herself in the dungeon with no help whatsoever ... [two of them were twins but one apparently died after being born cause he had some birth defects or something . his body was then incinarated by his dad/grandfather in some place and apparently no one found out till now .] ah ! it's a pretty long story but you can look it up here :http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Fritzl
at times like this , i really am glad to have parents like mine ;D
so yea , i reached home , watched a bit of tele and came here to blog . as i was blogging , kim called me and told me that ky lost her phone . then afterwards , she called again to tell me it was all a prank to get faith to tell me that . they're really super duper childish . sometimes i wonder if they have anything called BRAINS ? then i received a msg from ky telling me that she's sorry to pull a prank on me and to told me to forgive and forget . sometimes i wonder if she practices what she preaches ? she always tell people to forgive and forget but she herself is one who hold grudges and all . i seriously don't want to care about her anymore . after typing so much , i realised that me getting upset and angry over this is such a waste of my time . so i'm just gonna leave it to Him to deal with her .
apparently i have no control on kim whatsoever . hahas . cause she's calling ky now . she's really one "hiong" girl man .. [ clapclaps ! ] hahas. okay , i'll stop now , or else this would be a ten page essay ! oh yea , bio and f&n paper is relatively easy today . hope i score !

loveloves ! ♥

missing you and random rants.♥

2008-05-08T00:34:00.005+08:00

baby and me fooling around !
nice nice picture after we clamed down a bit from all the horsing around .

i miss baby loads . i know i just saw him yesterday , but we didn't really talk much . i don't know why but talking to him just clam my nerves down . i still feel the same serenity even when we argue . hahas . i'm such a weirdo and this post is so random . ah ! i got to concentrate ! jiayou jiamin ! ;x

loveloves ! ♥

p.s ; last photo - baby looks a bit retarded .. oops ! ;x

second post !

2008-05-07T23:39:00.000+08:00

hello hello ! hahas. oops ! something's wrong with the previous post. anyways, got to get back at mugging. there's still bio and f&n to go.. T.T really hate exams . anyways , wish me luck ! cause i have sudden throbbing headache .. must be the weird position i slept in just now . >.<

loveloves ! ♥